Perspective

So I will admit these last few months I have been feeling very sorry for myself.  It's quite embarrassing really, but I've been having a pity party.  My husband has been looking for jobs since about November with no luck.  Job hunting is the worst. I'm know I'm biased because he is my husband, but I just don't understand how he hasn't been offered a million jobs by now.  He is very smart and talented.  I try to be optimistic and give him encouragement, but it is a very discouraging process.  


I often find myself asking "what have we done to deserve this" or "I'm pregnant and we are about to have a baby, I don't need this stress" or "why can't we have what other people have, it's not fair".  This is not a pretty side of me. This has definitely been a test of my faith.  Which is strange because we have gone through some pretty big trials in our 4 1/2 years of marriage and for some reason this trial is bringing me down.  Maybe because I'm pregnant so everything seems more dramatic.  Looking at other people's blogs doesn't help me either.  


But then I realized I had no room to complain or think my life is so horrible.  I have a healthy little baby boy growing inside of me and my pregnancy has been great with no complications.  Seriously, I should feel SO blessed, not so picked on.  We have a roof over our heads, food to eat, cars to drive, and I do have a job.  Things could be A LOT worse.  I have a hard time with Heavenly Fathers "time line".  I always want things to work out when I want them to.  I need to work on being patient.  I do know things will work out, I just wish they could work out a little more quickly.  But instead of thinking "I'll be happy when..." I need to just be happy now!  And it's not that I'm not happy, because I am.  I just need to remember to be grateful for all the things we do have and not worry about what we don't have.  We have each other and that is the most important.  I love my husband dearly and all you need is Love, right?  


I read this today on Nie Nie's blog.  I cried.  She is wonderful.  I want to read her book so bad.  I told Clark to buy it for me, but I fear that I will get it after the baby is here and either A. I won't have time to read it or B. I will neglect my poor baby to read.  Listening to her talk and watching the little video gave me a lot of perspective.  I'm not going to feel sorry for myself. 


I'm sorry if you have heard me complain about various things that past few months.  I have been a Debby Downer.  I mostly feel bad for my family and my friend who I share an office with at work.  She gets a lot of my complaining.  We have therapy sessions with each other.  It's fun.  

I need to remember my cute little baby that is already so positive.  He is giving the thumbs up so I guess that means everything is going to be fine.  

Baby Shower Number 2

My wonderful Mother in law, my sister in laws, and Clark's aunt (do I call her my aunt in law?) threw me a baby shower on March 17th.  My turquoise cardigan counted as my green for St. Patty's day.  Here I am at 37 almost 38 weeks. 

My father in law and I were comparing our belly sizes.  He likes to tease :)

Owl party favors.

Just some of the cute decorations from the shower.  They really put a lot of work into decorating. 

Angie made Henry a little sign.  It works as a cute Easter decoration too.

My wonderful sister Allison that drove down from Logan!  I was happy she was there.  My mom and my other sisters are still wonderful but they were in California.  I guess my nephew's 3rd birthday was more important :)

My beautiful cousin Megan with her darling baby boy Rohan.  Isn't she just so photogenic!

Some family from my mom's side.  My aunt Sherrie, Grandma Allred and cousin Megan and sister Allison again.  We had to show the California people that we were having more fun then they were! 

My shower was combined with cute Erin.  She married Clark's cousin Wade, but I also knew her from the days of living in Hess Farms.  She is having a little girl Hadlee in April too!  I'm so happy for her and Wade, and can't wait to meet Hadlee.

The pregnant girls again.  This picture shows the other cute decorations.  Angie bought cute little clothes to hang on clothes wire along with some more cute owls she made.  

The lovely ladies who threw a really fun shower! 

Angie, Me, Carolyn, Kim, & Natalie

 I didn't get a picture of RaJean (Clark's aunt) but she also helped too.  It turned out to be really fun.  I always feel so guilty when people buy me gifts, but we really do appreciate all of it :)  

I only have 4 1/2 more days till my due date.... I should say "due week" since what baby really comes on the official due date.  Probably not mine since I'm not showing any progress at all.  Oh well I feel great so baby Henry can stay in a few more days.  I'm thinking April 2nd or April 4th would be great days to come.  I left out April 3rd because for some reason I don't really like odd numbers.  I know it's weird.  Plus April 4th is Clark's birthday and he would love to share his birthday wish his first born son.  That way they can do "manly" stuff together when Henry is older.  Weird to think I will be posting about a baby soon.  

*Also I just realized I said cute a lot in this post.  I don't want to try and think of synonyms to replace them.

Baby Shower

I had a baby shower on March 10th.  My sisters put a lot of work into my shower and I thought it was so much fun!  My cute cousin and aunt also made some yummy popcorn for a party favor that said "ready to Pop".  So cute!  

Decorations.  They made a cute banner that says "Henry".  I'm going to hang it in his nursery.  

Instead of "cool" shower games they decided that everyone would make a onesie for Henry.  They had a bunch of different sizes of onesies and then had fabric cut out in fun shapes like a giraffe, dinosaur, truck, star, octopus, fish, tree and rocket ship.  Everyone picked what they wanted and ironed it on.  Some added stitching around the outside or buttons.  They turned out so cute.  

Busy working on their onesie

Grandma and Emily working hard.  Emily was so cute to drive all the way from Springville and luckily she was the smart one who actually knew how to use the iron on paper and the fabric.  I was so happy she came!  We missed the rest of her family though.  Thanks Mary and Emily for the cute popcorn treat.  

Erin helping Polly iron on her shape

The delicious treats.  

So happy Carolyn and Angie made the drive.  Angie made a cute diaper cake for me and they spoiled me and Henry with cute clothes! Next Saturday these lovely ladies are throwing me another shower.  I'm so grateful for our wonderful families.  

My cute sisters Adrienne & Allison who threw the shower.  Thanks girls, I loved it! All your hard work was worth it.  My lovely Mom helped too :)

My mom made me take this picture.  She wouldn't let me leave until I took a picture like this.  She is silly.  Here I am almost 37 weeks in all my glory!

Rock-A-Bye Baby

The cradle is finished!  Baby H has a place to sleep whenever he decides to come.  This thing will rock him to sleep all night, it is so smooth.  My husband is talented!  

The cradle is made of African Mahogany and the two end panels are Ribbon Mahogany (that is why the grain looks striped).  This is one sturdy cradle.  It will be a family heirloom for sure.  

I had to put one of his little outfits in to get the full effect.  

 Elephant Book Shelf

I love these little guys so much!  Clark was able to make 3 out of the wood he bought and I secretly want to keep them all.  I can't decide on what color I want, they are all so cute.  I saw the original on pinterest and Clark looked at the picture and made his own.  He drew the blue print by hand then traced it onto the wood and cut it out with the band saw.  I don't think they could have turned out any better.  They are bigger than what the original size said.  That thing is made of solid wood.  It is legit. 

Chair Re-do

This is the chair we got at a yard sale in McCall ID.

And this is what we turned it into.  It is navy blue with green and navy fabric.  I think it turned out so cute.  Clark picked out the fabric so I thought a navy chair would look pretty cute.  As far as "nursery" colors go I didn't want a super matchy room.  I want gray and aqua colored crib bedding, but I didn't want everything to be just those colors.  We don't really have space to set up a nursery yet, so I'm not sure how it will all come together.  But I figure Henry will be in the cradle in our room for a few months so we have plenty of time to set up the nursery.  Clark is working on the crib right now.  

I'm officially 37 weeks!  This means the baby can come at anytime but I'm really hoping that he waits until April.  I just need the last 3 weeks to get everything ready.  I can't wait to meet the little dude!